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Lazy Sooo~
Let's start with I am Not good with these things and that's the reason I post these tag things to show I'm still alive. But whatever, today's a new day! 2012 bitches~!! Anyway
2011 was CRAZY it started out pretty epic, I was working on the "House" in the late summer. Then December was like a fucking roller coaster man, filled with the happy stuff and the sad stuff. It was a pretty emotional revenging year. I can't say it hasn't effected me cause it has in positive ways and not so positive ways. So yeah that's the brief bio of what went down last year.
This year, well -_-
I'm workin' on my show called DRAmA it's a YouTube thing, and I've been working on it since 2006/7, for a very long time.
It's been so long and the first season of the bloody thing hasn't been finished >_< (Which is why the year before was stressful.)
This year the show has me on edge again man, the dumb house isn't done. This is all I got of it ( [link] ) It's April 4th 2012 now.
This time last year I was stressed as a mo fucker. The reason was because of an Easter special I had to do of the show. I had to make my own easter baskets, like weave them, two days before Easter no less. I stayed up until sun rise to finish them. Went to bed got up 6/5 hours later and filmed the shiz. Edited it and uploaded to Youtube on Easter Sunday.
It could be debated that this is too much for a "doll" show.
But if I didn't do this I wouldn't be able to carry on with out it being forever on my mind. The show is in my heart at this point, it's room mates are my older characters, Darko, Khaotic, Kota and the others.
Their all apart of me.
This is what's going on in my life at the momento.
But at the same time I don't think any red flags have to be drawn. I mean these are my feelings, I'm being honest, and I have a feeling they'll change, and things will get better.
I don't know about whole "Fans." Cause I think if you truly loved what you were doing, you'd do what you'd love regardless of the audience. Let's be blunt. In the end the "complements" don't matter, when you're alone and struggling they don't help. The show has taught me that. In those moments you grow as a person, you have to rely on yourself for support, but it's not scary, cause you have yourself.
I'm a kid, I'm not supposed to know everything, that's a part of life, we learn as we go. I hope I learn how to be less hard on myself, but I'm coming along alright.
So yeah that's the life of a fucking Director xD
I may post more emo entries and less emo ones, they'll be related to the show and directing so be warned.
But I'm doin' alright, it's just the creative process that's getting to me.
ON WITH DA MEME, THIS TOOK LONGER THEN I ORIGINALLY THOUGHT
Emo
[x] I cry a lot (I'm not a cry baby XD I cry to normal things, like movies, and emotions and chick things....)
[ ] I go to local shows.
[ ] I wear black everyday. (That's all I have in my dresser ._. This only mean's one thing. SHOPPING SPREE.)
[/] I write sad poetry. (I use to try to.)
[ ] I play an acoustic guitar. (I want to--wait how's that emo?)
[x] My favorite bands include: Fall Out Boy , My Chemical Romance, or Panic! at the Disco.
[ ] I think about suicide or death often.
[ ] People have told me to cheer up.
[ ] I cry when I see dead animals.
[ ] My myspace pics are black or white or angled.
[ ] I wear many band shirts.
[ ] No one understands me.
[ ] I don't talk too often.
[ ] I look down when I walk.
[ ] I wear black eyeliner.
[/] I have an ex I still cry over. (Being rejected count?)
[ ] My hair is black. (Dark brown.)
[ ] My hair covers one of my eyes.
[ ] I always say 'life sucks'.
Total: 2 and a half.
Nerd
[ ] I have straight A's. (I never went to school.)
[x] I wear glasses. (>u> I HAS FOUR EYES BITCHES, I CAN STALK YOU 4 TIMES AS HARD)
[ ] I always do my homework and study. (I hate homework.)
[ ] Lord of the Rings was a massive achievement.
[x] Computer games.
[ ] I'm 'teachers pet'.
[x] I've never had a real boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ] I have a bedtime.
[ ] I use an asthma inhaler.
[ ] I carry a calculator with me.
[ ] I bring my lunch to school.
[ ] I always follow the rules.
[ ] I'm shy around the opposite sex.
[x] I'm always on the computer.
[x] I've never had beer or cigarettes.
[ ] I always answer every question in class right.
[ ] I correct people's grammar.
[x] I read a lot.
[ ] School is very important to me.
[ ] I always stump people.
Total: 6 Oooh, looket that, I might be a nerd~
Rebel
[x] I always speak my mind.
[ ] I have 0% of school spirit. (I like the idea, but after awhile it's like...blah.)
[x] Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me!
[x] I stand up for what I think is right.
[ ] On spirit days at school, I wear reable colors (Wooow you're so hard core.)
[x] Whenever people are doing something, I do the complete opposite.
[x] I won't listen to authority figures.
[/] I always break the rules.
[/] I refuse to compromise.
[ ] I'm always arguing with people.
[x] I love debate.
[/] I always do what's unexpected of me.
[x] I don't give a shit what people think of me.
[ ] If I watch a cruddy movie in theaters, right after it's over, I'll say 'that sucked'. (Ur such a rebel.)
[x] I'm not afraid to contradict others.
[ ] I only respect my own beliefs.
[x] If I don't want to do something, I won't do it, no matter what.
[ ] I laugh at compromising people.
[ ] I cheer on the rival's sport team to stand out.
[x] Rules were meant to be broken.
Total: 10 and 3 halfs
Jock (I would have totally been a jock if I went to school.)
[ ] I'm on one or more sport teams.
[ ] I always wear my varsity jacket. (I WANT ONE SOOOOO BAD.)
[ ] I've won awards for my athletic ability.
[ ] I will only date popular girls/guys.
[ ] School Spirit 100%.
[ ] I'm going to a college for sports.
[ ] I watch sports on tv all the time
[x] I'm muscular.
[/] I play sports or exercise at least 3 hours a day. (An hours good enough who the fuck goes for 3 hours xD U JUS PLAY HIGH SCHOOL SPORTS)
[ ] Go Team!
[ ] I'm a chick/dude magnet.
[x] I eat a lot.
[/] I'm egotistical.
[ ] I'm too focused on sports to make really good grades.
[ ] I sit at the jock lunch table.
[ ] All I talk about with my friends is sports.
[ ] I go to lots of sports games.
[x] I'm very athletic
[x] I wear sport inspired clothing.
[ ] play at least 3 different sports.
Total: 4 and a half
Comedian
[x] I'm funny.
[x] I'm always making jokes.
[ ] interrupt class by making people laugh.
[x] I like to entertain people.
[ ] I worship Kevin Smith. (FUCK KEVIN SMITH)
[x] I watch comedies more than anything.
[ ] I also watch SNL and Mad TV a lot
[x] I'm sarcastic.
[x] I've been told I'm hilarious. (Funny but ok.)
[ ] I always imitate people.
[ ] I pull lots of pranks.
[ ] I always make sarcastic remarks after everything.
[ ] I have to prove myself by being funny.
[ ] People expect me to make jokes, always.
[ ] I have a lot of pressure to make everyone laugh.
[ ] If I don't make jokes, people ask me what's wrong.
[ ] Jim Carrey is my idol.
[ ] I mostly get along with everybody.
[ ] At pep rallies, I'm the one acting crazy and silly.
[ ] My teachers or parents tell me I need to focus more on work and less on joking around. (I probably should, but it's soo hard for me to focus to begin with XD)
Total: 6
Shy
[ ] I don't have a lot of friends. (Who does? It's not like there's a certain number you need.)
[x] I don't talk too much.
[/] It's not that I'm snobby, I just get nervous when talking to people.
[ ] When people say my name, others say 'who?'
[x] I'm pretty sure mostly no one knows who I am.
[ ] People have told me I need to talk more.
[x] I only talk when other people talk to me first
[ ] I look down when I walk.
[/] I avoid social gatherings, such as games, dances, or parties.
[ ] People have tried to help me be more outgoing, but it never works.
[x] I always plan to talk to more people, but I never do.
[ ] I sit in the back of the classroom.
[ ] I never participate in class discussions.
[x] I hide behind people to avoid being seen sometimes.
[ ] I could never be a cashier, talking to strangers. (I'd love to be a waitress, that's a lot more social I think.)
[x] I talk quietly, and people say "What?"
[ ] People have called me shy or quiet.
[ ] I usually let others decide for me.
[ ] If someone is talking about my favorite book or movie in front of me, I don't join in the conversation.
[ ] I would like to be more outgoing.
Total: 6 and 2 halfs
Goth
[ ] I wear black. (Dark colors is all I got D: )
[x] I don't like to be seen.
[x] I'm very, very pale. (I need to tan....badly.)
[ ] I only listen to metal or emo-ish music.
[x] I love creepy, weird movies. (Who doesn't?)
[x] I love gothic cartoons and drawings.
[x] I don't like people.
[ ] I only go out during the night. (...Who da fuck only goes out a night? Are ya that arrogant you can only go out at Nigh---)
[ ] I have black fingernails.
[ ] I wear a long black coat.
[ ] I also wear big black boots.
[ ] 'The Crow' is one of my favorite movies.
[ ] I only date other Goths.
[x] I love black humor.
[ ] I love pain.
[ ] People think I'm crazy.
[ ] I don't talk to anyone who isn't as deep as me.
[ ] I love to scare people.
[ ] I laugh at teenyboppers.
[ ] People are scared of me.
Total: 6
Weirdo
[x] I talk to myself.
[x] I say really random things all the time.
[x] I fidget a lot.
[ ] I still use a wheeled backpack.
[ ] People laugh at me.
[ ] I walk really funny.
[ ] I have a very different sense of style. (I guess...? whatever...)
[ ] I talk in a robot voice often.
[ ] I'll stop whatever I'm doing, and break out in a crazy dance if the mood strikes.
[x] I debate stuff with myself.
[x] I hear voices. (KIiinnnddddaaa yeah...do Characters count?)
[ ] I'm obsessed with aliens and the other planets.
[x] I have a fascination with robots and machinery.
[ ] I use really big words no one understands, and they give me weird looks.
[ ] I say random lines of babbling that make sense to no one but me.
[ ] I dart my eyes from side to side.
[ ] I always pretend I'm a robot or other weird non human thing.
[x] People have no idea why I think the way I do.
[ ] I have some very unusual, extraordinary talents. (I wonder what those would be for someone XD, playing the Voilin with your feets maybe?)
[ ] When people ask me if I like something that's trendy, I pretend to be scared or confused.
Total: 7
Antisocial
[x] I hate most people.
[x] I prefer to be alone.
[ ] When people talk to me, I just give them a death glare.
[x] Actually, most people don't talk to me.
[/] People are freaking idiots and I wish they'd all die.
[x] I live in my room, writing in my diary.
[x] I go out my way to avoid everyone.
[/] I never greet anyone.
[/] I despise people who talk too loudly.
[x] I want people to think I'm a freak.
[/] I never talk.
[ ] I can't wait to get off this earth.
[ ] I always sit by myself at lunch or anywhere else.
[/] I listen to music on full blast on my ipod/mp3 player/headphones to block out the world.
[ ] I don't know why I am the way I am.
[ ] People have said I'm antisocial.
[ ] I use drugs or alcohol to escape the loneliness.
[ ] Why bother when people don't like you anyways?
[ ] I occupy myself so it won't look like I'm a loner.
[ ] I just don't get along with anyone.
Total: 6 and 3 halfs
Skater
[ ] I skateboard to everywhere.
[ ] If I'm not skateboarding, I carry it with me.
[ ] I shop at Pacsun.
[ ] I'm obsessed with Tony Hawk.
[ ] Oh yeah, and Bam Margera.
[ ] I always play skateboarding video games.
[ ] I have shaggy hair.
[ ] I wear baggy pants.
[ ] I wear skater shoes only.
[x] I always wear hoodies.
[ ] I hang at skate parks 24/7.
[ ] I'm always learning new board tricks.
[ ] Forget school, I want to be a professional skateboarder.
[ ] I've been skateboarding for over 4 years.
[ ] I hang with other skaters.
[ ] I've been hurt while skateboarding.
[ ] I've been in a skateboarding competition.
[ ] I wear vans.
[ ] Tony Hawks games own.
[ ] I've met some of my closest friends at skate parks.
Total: 1
Christian Girl/Boy
[ ] I go to church at least once a week. (sunday school)
[ ] Most of my wardrobe consists of long skirts and button down shirts for church.
[ ] I always carry a bible with me.
[ ] My whole family is very religious. ( my Grandma's side of the family pretends to be.)
[ ] I've never been on a date.
[x] I've never smoked or had a beer.
[ ] My beliefs are very strong.
[ ] I'm waiting for marriage until sex.
[ ] I wear a cross necklace.
[ ] I have a bracelet that says WWJD.
[ ] I'm always preaching to people about the importance of religion.
[ ] I believe in God.
[ ] I'm not allowed to watch rated R movies, and sometimes, not even PG-13 movies.
[ ] I never go out and party. (If I could I would.)
[ ] I read the bible everyday.
[ ] I've memorized excerpts from the bible.
[ ] I go to Sunday school.
[ ] I've been to church camp.
[ ] I pray every night.
[ ] I sing Christian songs.
Total: 1
Gangsta (AW HELL YEAH)
[x] I say 'yo'. ( sometimes)
[x] I also say 'fo shizzle'.
[x] I wear extremely baggy pants.
[ ] Mah chainz hang low.
[ ] I hang with my homies, biotches, and ***'s.
[x] I'm a thug.
[/] I only listen to rap music.
[ ] 50 Cent is my idol. (use to be T_T 50! HOW COULD YOU?! WHY DID YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH THAT SUM BITCH FLOYD MONEYMAYEATHER?! WHY?)
[X] I don't give a frick about school.
[x] I steal/have stolen before. ( stole candy when I was 5, YEAH I WAS A G AT FIVE.)
[ ] I freestyle.
[ ] I breakdance.
[X] Gold chainz is tha way to go, biotch.
[ ] I'm white but I act black.
[ ] All my heroes are dead rappers.
[ ] Tupac is still alive.
[ ] I party with all my ****.
[ ] I wear a sideways baseball cap.
[x] I wear hoodies.
[ ] I wear converse with the tongue flipped out.
Total: 8 and a half....that was really racist XD probably, gah still fun. THUG LIFE BABY!
Bully
[ ] I always steal people's lunch money.
[ ] Geeks are afraid of me.
[ ] I get in trouble all the time.
[ ] I steal people's stuff to be an asshole.
[ ] People have called me a bully.
[ ] I have beat someone up before.
[ ] I'm always looking for a fight.
[ ] I pick on people smaller than me.
[ ] I push people out of the way when I'm walking.
[ ] I've never been in a relationship before.
[ ] People are afraid of me.
[ ] People know not to mess with me.
[ ] I'm bigger than most people my age.
[ ] I pick on people for the fun of it.
[ ] I make fun of everything anyone else likes.
[X] If anyone crosses my path, they're dead.
[ ] People know not to try and stick up for themselves when I'm around.
[ ] I'm one of the strongest kids in school.
[ ] Even some authority figures are afraid of me.
[ ] People get out of my way when I'm walking.
Total: 1, Idk maybe I'd be a bit of a bully--To the bullies at the school I'd go to xD I'd be tough :>
Gamer
[x] I own at least 2 different video game consoles. (At least?! I have like 5, and including my DS and Game boy 7.)
[ ] I love Final Fantasy. (7 only
)[ ] DDR & Guitar Hero
[ ] I've missed school before because I was trying to beat a video game.
[x] I'm always trying to beat high scores on games.
[ ] I even play a lot of computer games.
[x] I play at least 3 hours of video games a day. (I use to play all day, my life was video games then I found the internet. I still play at least over 3 hours when I do play video games these days though.)
[ ] My thumbs are sore often. (Um Yes once XD Play bully on the wii, that' fuckin' thing is a work out.)
[ ] I spend all my money on new video games. (use to.)
[x] My boyfriend/girlfriend has to be into video games. (I wanna gammer.)
[ ] All I talk about is video games.
[ ] I've been in a video game competition before.
[ ] I pay over 30$ a month in online games.
[ ] I have bought more than 5 accessories for my console(s)
[ ] I know about more than 10 cheats and mods in the game i play most
[x] I have played at least a complete week in the game i like most.
[x] I wouldnt know what to do in an afternoon without electricity.
[x] My parents often tell the internet is broken or simply disconnect it so i dont spend whole weekends and holidays playing.
[ ] Ive actually read a book about videogames.
[x] I have more than one online account on the same game. (zOMG YOU'RE MY LONG LOST LOVE.)
Total: 8
Girly
[x] I have long hair
[ ] I wear make up everyday
[ ] I carry a purse. (I just carry my money XD Um, but I need a purse.)
[x] I have to get someone else to come kill a spider or any bug
[ ] I paint my nails
[ ] I use perfume
[ ] I keep my nails clean/shaped
[ ] I shower regularly (I wash my face regularly.)
[ ] I used to or still do Dance, Gymnastics, or Cheer/Pom
[X] I like to accessorize
[ ] I like flowers (I don't like flowers.)
[ ] I don't like to be outdoors (love the outdoors.)
[/] I'm more like my mother than my father
[x] I like hanging out with girls (friends) than boys.
[x] I like going to the mall/shopping
[/] I watch my weight/ count calories
[x] I plan outfits ahead of time
[x] People say I have a soft/sweet voice
[ ] I dream about and am already planning my wedding day
[ ] I watch dramatic shows on tv, soap operas, reality TV, etc
Total: 7 and a half
Boyish
[ ] I have short hair
[ ] I hate doing laundry
[X] I like war type video games
[ ] I like playing or watching sports
[ ] People say I have a deep voice
[X] I'm more like my Dad than my mom.
[ ] I beat up or tease my younger siblings or friends
[ ] I act tough, it doesn't matter whats going on inside me
[ ] There's only two emotions
[X] I shower only when I (or others) start to notice I stink
[x] I think about the opposite sex a lot.
[X] My room isn't neat
[x] I bite my nails instead of using scissors/clippers
[x] My clothes don't match sometimes, but I don't notice or care
[ ] I like to play rough with dogs
[x] I like the movies 300, Transformers, The Dark Knight
[/] The best way to get the opposite sex to like you is to act like a jerk
[/] I don't read
[X] I don't ask for help even if I need it
Total: 9 and a half
Well that was fucking LONG GAH AUGHHAH ahh.
So boyish wins, Gangsta's 2nd.
